Therapy

I've mentioned before that my blog is like therapy for me. Since making my last drastic switch, I have felt this is even more true. Many of you have been kind and "upped" your comments. I don't want you all to comment just to keep me from falling off the deep end, but please don't stop! I guess I want it both ways. :)

I've also thought many times over the last few years that I need to see a professional therapist/counselor. But I'd have a good few weeks and think I'd beaten the problem, only to have another melt down later. In the last couple of months, I'd decided it was really time to talk to my bishop about pointing me in the right direction. (Crying through 3 hours of church was a good motivator.)

Well, my new blog therapy had lifted my spirits a bit, so I wasn't actively pursuing the decision I'd made to seek help. Fortunately(?), there are some folks around here who think I need some encouragement. I was "reported" to my bishop and he talked to me today. Bottom line...I am expecting a call some time this week to set up my first appointment.

In a dream world, I'd love to tell my sad tale and put all the blame on my family. In reality, I need someone to help me see what I haven't been able to show myself and help me work through this mess. Even if my family never changes, I hope to be able to have a more positive perspective on things. And maybe they don't need to change...though I still think they do. !!

It sure would be nice for Chad and my children to have a less emotional woman ruling their lives, and my friends would probably like to witness fewer breakdowns as well. Here's to hoping for good things!